Yagnaseni

Born of the heart of ritual fire,
cradled by the tongues of fire,
revered as a blaze of unbearable beauty,
doted by her husbands
until bartered like an animal
for a game of dice,
dragged into the royal hall
by the locks of her hair,
the men present there –
old and young,
yearned
for a glimpse of that body.
 
Some held their hands down,
some clenched their fists in shame,
some swallowed the hunger.
The rage of her dearest
shuddered
the domains of gods.
He threw his mace
at the abductor
narrowly missing him.
The hundred brothers
and their cohorts
laughed
at the spectacle.
Layer after layer,
they rushed the disrobing
for the final reveal.
Every unspooling thread
held the suspense
of the profane.
 
She didn't pray for a saviour,
She didn’t wait for a miracle,
she didn't need a god.
She closed her eyes tightly
and fell inward
into the hearth of her first fire.
She unlocked
her female splendor.
That was not the kind of splendor
they coveted.
When the splendor
broke free,
it blinded their eyes
and charred the skin
that touched her.
 
She shone
like a thousand brilliant suns.
 
The spectacle
shattered
every shard,
every weapon,
every idol
in the realm.
 
She
was losing form –
losing parts of her
with every flicker.
 
Her dearest
got up from the cold floor,
like a mountain of breath and fury,
he moved toward her,
lifted her off the ground,
as her body gave way.
She curled in his embrace
like an infant.
 
Soothing
each fracture,
each unseen wound,
he carried her
into the sacred refuge
of the icy mountains.
 
When she woke up
at dusk
on the third day,
he smiled at her
and held her hand tighter.
Exhaustion
blurred the edges of reality
but her mind
survived
the annihilation.
 
She pulled him close
and murmured to him
about a dream
where she danced
with the fireflies
and battled
the blazing comets
in the sky.

The storm inside all of us

Pollen-filled winds
whistle
in the spring garden.
 
The hummingbird
hovered over the snail
and whispered:
I miss your Zen and calm.
 
The snail smiled
and replied:
On a dewy sunlit morning,
I crawled to the summit
of a mossy boulder
and whispered
between exasperated breaths:
I miss your Zen and calm.
 
The boulder smiled
thinking to itself:
How I weigh down
the tension and secrets
of the rumbling grounds
underneath. 

a little too drunk on a late afternoon

Wind in the hair,
smoke in the lungs,
mushy in the mind,
tight knot in the stomach.
 
I was pushing beyond all limits
on a remote village road.
Everything was a haze,
a purple haze.
The farmers returning from the fields
were drifting over the landscape
like ghosts.
 
It was a sharp turn.
A creature
or the mind’s silly prank,
strange and impish,
darted in front of me
from the thorny fences.
I lost control, thrown
and skidded across the road
on loose gravel –
each grain of sand
rubbing against flesh.
I was a bloody mess
in tattered clothes
and dripping warm liquid.
 
The road was empty.
I stood up
towering
against the sugarcane fields
and gazed
at a curled-up leathery ball
at the other end.
I dragged my numb leg
and limped
my way to the object.  
It was motionless.
As I approached
the seemingly weird
piece of relic,
it unfurled back to life
and disappeared
into the tall blades of grass.
I was a bloody mess
in a sacred space.
It was a giant armadillo.
 
The hunger pangs
and the sting
were getting too real.
As I struggled to start the bike,
the ghosts
evaporated into the afternoon heat.

An Inconsequential Life

He gave her a thousand bouquets,
sometimes carnations,
sometimes sunflowers,
but mostly roses,
bright red roses -
the deep color
of a prodded wound
or a racing dream.
 
He gave her a thousand bouquets,
near bus stops,
at telephone booths,
inside churches,
once in a graveyard
when she was grieving
her aunt's early demise.
Some were thrown in trash cans,
some were forgotten in handbags,
some were mindlessly torn apart,
petal by petal - as in a game,
some were neatly arranged
in a crystal vase
by her younger sister.
 
It was past twilight
on a late summer evening,
the bats were hunting
a rich harvest
in the humid air.
He approached her again
at the back entrance
of the local bakery.
She grabbed the flowers
from his sweaty arms,
pushed him
against the mossy brick wall,
stared into his eyes,
and waited.
He muttered something.
In an instant,
she kissed him
on his dry, peeling lips.
It was not a quick one,
It was not a deep one,
just long enough
to be called
an invitation.  
 
She took a deep drag
from her cigarette,
and walked away
into the darkness.
His eyes
followed the wisps of smoke.
He shook himself off
the camouflage
of the wall
and collapsed
on a bag of soda bottles.
 
The night sky
turned steely blue.
Her perfume
lingered on his senses,
weakening his knees.
His sight
turned blurry.
 
She went home,
asked her sister
for the crystal vase,
changed
into her nightdress,
arranged the flowers,
and played some loud music.
 
He went back to his room
after two hours.
He changed
into his pajamas.
Within minutes of his arrival,
his tabby cat
sneaked inside
from the window.
Clutched
between its teeth
was a blood-soaked bat
frantically beating its wings,
and bleating
like ominous sirens.
 
He poured warm milk
into a plastic bowl
by the refrigerator.
 
That night,
his spirit animal
put him to sleep
while narrating
a different version of the story.

Chamundi

She sheds her clothes,
swallows the ego,
rises above the domains
of mortality and reality.
 
She
delivers without surrendering,
she
becomes without existing,
she
unbecomes without exiting.
 
She’s the darkest dark.
She’s the iciest void,
She’s nothing,
and the glorious ever after. 

The night he threw everything out of the window

He was trapped
in the sweltering heat
of his one-bedroom apartment.
 
He would start his day
with a guttural sigh.
The weight
increased with every passing second
until it became unbearable
by late afternoon.
On lonely nights,
he collapsed
into the overwhelming gravity
of loneliness,
or quietly resigned
to deep slumber.
This routine
continued for decades.
 
The bandits of time
ravaged
his innocence,
inner peace,
and existence itself.
His questions
bounced off 
the stone walls –
never answered.
When his spine
was crushed under the weight,
he stopped asking any.

Last autumn,
a few weeks
after his birthday,
his friend
reminded him
he’s into his eighties now.
He casually added:
Think about this,
we’re the ancestors.
The old man’s thoughts
and everything that came after
hinged on that line
for long hours.
Sometime after dusk,
he went into the tiny kitchen,
made himself a cup of strong coffee,
drew the blinds,
took a deep breath,
and for the first time in his life,
stared amusingly
at the dance of raindrops
on the windowpane.